Today, I went at 8:30 for my adjustment. I'm always nervous when I get a fill. I think he's going to put too much in. Now he's changing the way they do fills. If everything is ok with the band, the adjustments will be done at the Outpatient clinic rather than at the hospital. They will no longer use x-ray to find the port or to x-ray the liquid going down. The patient will drink water instead of barium and will tell the doc when she feels it going down. The doc will have already injected saline into the port and will reject some if the water does not go down right away. Today's fill was "just a little bit" so I couldn't tell how much he really filled it. When he told me to drink, I did, but it sat there. He decided to look on x-ray to see for himslef and sure enough, there was the water. Then I had to drink the barium to see how it was going down. He said that I didn't really need a fill. He suggested that I change my eating habits and behavioral habits. He's right. I drink with eating, and drink A LOT of calories. I need to cut out this behavior or I'll never lose the rest of my weight. I think it's getting down to crunch time. I'm nervous about losing more weight. People are definately noticing, and they're saying something. My family made comments this weekend. Although it felt great, I was still a little uncomfortable with the comments. How will I look when I lose even more weight? I only have 35 pounds left to lose. And I'm scared. I told Joey that we are in competition. He liked that, but I am serious. I'm not going to have him surpass me in weight loss when I still have pounds to lose. I also want to buy a bathing suit for the summer and for Mexico in December. I need to have more weight off before I do so. God, help me.

menu:

breakfast nothing

lunch coffee, lemon loaf slice, 2 bites mexican steak, tomatillos salsa

dinner bite squash, cup ice cream-coffee flavor, crystal lite iced tea

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