You know, I know I can't change the past, I know I've come a long way since last year, but sometimes I am just a little disappointed - not in the band, but in myself.

It all began with my cruise last year, after I fell, and had to have surgery, along with my house flooding when we returned home, and my grandmother dying, everything went to H-E - _ _.

I ate whatever I wanted, I couldn't exercise, I was so depressed and just ate. The habits came rushing back in full swing. I'm disappointed in myself because I thought I had changed. Now I look at me 14 months post op and I haven't lost weight since - well, November I think I weighed my lowest, 167. I did so good the first 6 months, but the 2nd 6 months were pure aweful!

I know, there is nothing I can do about it now, I'm just venting. I am now determined to get 'er done! I want to reach or be pretty close to my goal by my 18 month post op anniversary.

I just had to write down my frustration and my disappointment in myself.

Now, I'm ready to kick some butt and ready to lose this weight. I think my mind is finally right!

You know, we do the best with what you have. You were the way you were for longer then you have been banded. It's going to take a while for all your new habits to sink in. Just keep reinforcing them when you can and forgive yourself when you can't. You probably would forgive others for their faults, cut yourself some slack.

Tomorrow is a new day!

Never give up you can do it! You're here, right? You're listening to yourself and you're getting the courage to do what you need to do! Make a mini goal - it's the 2nd of April.what better time then the first of the month!!! Get yourself on track girlfriend and we're here for you when you need it.

Now I just need to do the same thing!

Thanks guys, I think I'm a little hormonal. lol

I do feel better today, I was just a little down yesterday because when I first had the surgery, I figured I would be at goal by now.....Was a little sad yesterday that I haven't reached goal yet.

Thank for all your support - we can and will do this!