Today I really got started on my paperwork. I attended a seminar on WLS and lapbanding on Saturday. I have been thinking about this for a while, lurking here, studying, then met Kelli and her Mom was banded three years ago. She says she would do it again in a heartbeat. The news anchor here has had it done and looks great.

Kelli said her Mom was such a foodie and loved to cook and binge she thought she wouldn't be able to stand it but her Mom is really happy and has gone from a 24 to a 12 now. I think I will have to give up cooking for a while but I get such joy out of it I will go back to it I am sure.

I have been filling out my health history and family health history today. Sad to find that only my sister and I suffer from real weight issues but I am happy to see we are mostly a pretty healthy bunch. I am lucky because at my height and weight it is amazing I don't have more issues than I do.

It was such a nice day today weatherwise. I think that helped me to get all the errands run. I stopped by Dr. Jones office to get my chart sent over to Dr. Edwards and then I went out to Dr. Wells where I thought she would be disappointed I wouldn't be coming to her any longer to try dieting but she was thrilled for me. I said I feel like I am coping out. She said if your knees needed surgery would that be coping out? She said she always felt bad she couldn't do more for me. I would lose 75 lbs and then gain it back again.......so vicious.

The only thing I have to do still is weigh myself and measure my stomach and hips. I do not look forward to that!!!! I have stopped weighing myself about 6 months ago. I have gone up to a 22 pant....that is so not good. I will be so thrilled when I can lose enough to just cross my legs. sounds stupid I know but it would just seem so nice. I know I can do it at 175 which seems pretty good at only 4 11.

Self paying the 17000 is good because at least I don't have to wait for insurance approval. I am hoping to get into my first consult in the next week to 10 days. Then psych nutrition and pre surgery diet to shrink the liver. I am so ready to do this. I just want to go out and be in public and not be so aware of my weight. Funny thing that was the best part about the seminar it had been so long since I was in a room and wasn't the fattest person in the room.

Gotta go find a tape measure.:confused_smile: oh boy.