As I go through my mind and try to get some head work done in preparation for surgery, I am becoming increasingly more aware of all of this repressed anger I have built up inside myself from years of medicating myself with food. So now, I have to figure out a way to deal with all of these issues, all these years after the fact. What fun!! I don't know what to do. It is really causing me a lot of stress because I have things I want to say to people, but know if I bring it up, it will only cause more problems because it has been so long. So, what do I do? I know if I don't get it out and deal with it, I will have to continue feeding it (literally) to keep it at bay. I feel so overwhelmed...:biggrin:

Can you say it to someone else? Someone who would be willing to be your sounding board? Can you write it out? Maybe not here, but somewhere that you can be totally honest. Or maybe a therapist? But you know, it may open old wounds, but it may be a good idea to just say it to whomever you feel needs to hear it. I mean face it, they may be old wounds, but apparently your's have not healed. I hope it works out for you.

I have started journaling about it all and I am feeling a lot better. My hubby has also been very sweet and attentive lately, which has helped a lot. I can finally really believe that he is actually here because he wants to be.