Hello Blog World!

Well, I thought I should write about Who I am and why I am here. I am 32 years old and have been overweight since about 3rd grade. I hated the way I looked, but I came from a small, ok, tiny dot of a town, and had lots of friends. I was always afraid of being the fat one, but no one really treated me like "her". I don't know why - I guess I was just lucky. I remember a girl in our school who was heavier than me, she got picked on relentlessly. I am so ashamed to say this, but I was so glad she was there and fatter than me. It was her that everyone was making fun of and not me. I was happy to not be the center of attention.

I have always been "happy, friendly, outgoing, fun, funny" yep, thats me, I will be ANYTHING but the fat one. I can't wait to be just Wendy, not, OMG, you have to meet Wendy, she is such a riot. I don't want to have to be a riot. I have always been afraid to not be liked. I have a need to be overly nice to everyone, I guess so they won't say anything mean to me. It is odd, I am actually very outspoken and opinionated once you get to know me. The real me.

I have been on every diet, meal plan and pill you can imagine. I have been partially successful at loosing weight many, many times. It is the keeping it off that I have trouble with. I really think, once I am banded, I will re-join weight watchers, I really like their plan, it helps me keep track and hopefully once I am banded, I can do it for more than 3 months!

I am married to the most awesome man in the world. He has loved me through it all. We actually went to school together off and on since elementary. (he moved a lot, but always cam back) We hated each other in school. He was the trouble maker, low truck, loud music, in and out of trouble. I was the preppy "Oh My God, we have a pep rally in 15 minutes . . ." pony tail, swinging in the wind. We were complete opposites. Come our senior year, something clicked, ok, I was in LOOOVVVVEEE and stalked him till I got him! Well, it wasn't that creepy, but looking back, lol, I was such a dork. We dated since then 1994. We were married in 2000, and moved from Texas to Utah. He was in the Air Force. Loved Utah btw. He was medically retired in 2004, after a failed back surgery, which caused RSD in his foot. In 2005 they diagnosed him with Multiple Sclerosis. So we have had a rough time of it. Medically wise. Did I mention he is HOT? LOL, he is a total hottie and has no idea.

I show, rescue and breed Miniature Pinschers. That is my true love in life. I have my own website, that I created (blushing) www.BeldwinKennels.com

Please feel free to look, I really don't breed much, 2 times in 3 years, and only one of the breedings resulted in puppies. It is more about helping others that are interested in Min Pins, along with a gazillion pictures of my babies. I am truly a dog fanatic. My life revolves around them and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Off to sleepy land . . .