I got my power on late last night! Yay!

Now, as far as eating, I'm taking it one day at a time. I called the hospital and asked them to put me on the waiting list so if there is a cancellation before my appointment, I would like to come in. So hopefully someone will cancel and I can get my fill before 1/18/07!

Okay - I did good yesterday for bfast & lunch, had some roasted chicken and salad for lunch, but dinner - well not that I ate that much, but I just ate the wrong things. My SIL cooked her famous homemade cookies (choco chip), well, need I say more. My will power and self control left. I feel like I have no control right now, I feel like I cannot say no to anything sweet, what in the world is wrong with me?

I think deep down I am using my "no restriction" as an excuse to eat whatever I want, that is bull crap, I need to have some sort of control!

Okay, today is another day so I start again.......today will be better, I know it will be!

PS - avoided the scales, just can't deal with them and decided I will just weigh on my 11 month band anniversary next week (Tuesday, 12/18/07). Whatever it says, well, I'll have to live with it. I can tell my jeans are tighter today, so I am up in weight.

When we have no fill we don't fill full, so we eat. That's the reason we got the band in the 1st place. So don't be so hard on yourself. I think we need that full feeling. I think the full feeling makes us feel secure or least it does for me. I guess I have always been trying to fill the space within me, and the band gives me that feeling. You will do fine. Stay postive.

its ok to slip. just don't give up. who wouldn't eat chocolate chip cookies? at least one! hang in there - and listen to carol - she is sooo right.