I haven't been very good about writing as often as I used to. I have been (I think I'm coming out of it) a "funk" (as I call it) for over a week now. The scale just seems to be lingering on the same damn number. I was and am impressed with the amount of inches I lost when I measured last week. It can get discouraging when I read about other people who were banded right around when I was and they have lost 20+ lbs since being banded. My doctor said that since some people don't have a 30 day pre-op diet, like I did, that larger weight loss is more normal for them after surgery. I still was expecting more. I need to learn patience. I'm not even sure if I've lost anything this week. I'll find out tomorrow when I weigh in for the week.

I have been pretty lax about what I've been eating. I also haven't been calculating my caloric intake everyday like I was before. I figure I still am consuming between 1200-1800 calories a day. I should be able to lose weight with those numbers. I also have put off exercising since I started a new part time job. I haven't had to work on my feet since August and by the end of my shift (as a waitress) my body feels like it's going to die. My hip gives me so much trouble. I actually start to limp. My feet are also not happy about the whole work thing. So that's been my excuse for not exercising.

I am recommitting myself to working the band. The past few days I have been very conscious of what I put in my mouth. I'm following the band rules. This has got to work for me. It will work.

I don't know if any of you have checked out Youtube and searched lapband. There are some very inspiring stories... as well as some that I'd rather of not seen. But the inspiring ones kinda kicked my butt back in gear. This is an amazing tool that I have. It can and does work. I just need to remember not to expect instant results. Food was/is so instantly gratifying. Losing the weight from eating the food doesn't happen over night. I just need to remember to get refocused every time I get in a funk.

Well- we'll see how things go in the next week and a half before my next doctor appointment. I hope to at least of dropped another pound or two before my first fill. I can't hardly wait for my first fill. Although I am apprehensive about getting poked:phanvan. But it WILL be worth it:).

I hope all of you out there are doing good. It can be a bumpy road but at least this road is going somewhere good!

Happy Thanksgiving!