I had my Lap-Band Surgery on September 6, 2007. Since then, I have had two fills. The first one was supposed to be 1cc. When I went for my second fill, I found out that my first was actually only .5cc. Both fills now total 1.5cc. I don't feel much restriction and my weight loss has stalemated.

I chose "Day 7665" as my title for this first entry because I have been dieting since I was about ten years old. I am now 31.

I went in for surgery at 288 lbs. I had to spend the night in the hospital because of a very rare disease I have (Porphyria), but, other than that, everything went well. I had a liquid diet for the day before the surgery.

I don't know about you, but I gained six pounds before my surgery! I kept looking at every meal as my last! When I came home after the surgery, I was hoping to have lost a pound or two, considering it was now day three of my wonderful liquid diet. NO SUCH LUCK! I actually GAINED two pounds, making my official highest weight 290. I was a little disheartened, but still excited.

I had my first fill on October 17th. I was supposed to get 1cc, but guess he didn't get all the air out of the band, and I only got .5cc. However, he asked if I thought I could sit up with the needle in my stomach. I figured I could do anything to get this weight off, so he said to come back in two weeks. He would have me sit up and drink water while he filled in the band. When I couldn't drink any more, he would take some out so that I would have a good amount in my band.

I called back in two weeks, but the appointment was with the other doctor in the office. I think I accidentally got in the middle of a power struggle between the two of them because he told me that he was the one in charge and that was NOT how they did it. So he gave me one more cc. That was on November 2nd.

My next apointment is on December 17th. I'm really looking forward to it! My biggest problem is that I am eating less at meals, but I am hungry between meals. I also have problems recognizing when I am full. I know I will get better at it, but I'm so used to eating until I feel slightly sick (not so good I guess!). Right now, it's a matter of I THINK I need more food than I actually do.

Another thing that surprises me is the peer pressure to eat. I don't want to eat so much, but when I eat lunch with my coworkers, I feel like I need to eat a normal (for an average person) amount of food. After throwing up a few times from eating too quickly, I am eating a lot more slowly and hoping that solves my problem.

I still eat way too quickly a lot. That's another habit I have to break. I know that throwing up is NOT good for the band. It's not actually throwing up, and the food just comes back up. Pretty gross. It's especially embarassing when I have to leave the table when I'm with people who don't know about my surgery (most of the people I know).

Well, my weight keeps fluctuating right now. I go between 268.8 and 272.2. This morning, I was 271.2. After looking at many of the before and after pictures on this website, I feel a lot more motivated to eat less, regardless of the amount of restriction I feel.

Here's to a great day!