Gee! where has the time gone since I was last here. I know spending it at the Hospital praying that dad will make it this time through. I had my visit with Dr. Srikanth and paid for my surgery. OK put a deposit down. $4000.00. He gave me a list of appointments to make and I went out in my car and schedule them all. So far I have seen my Physician Dr. Jacobson who stood behind me 100%. But felt a lot of the appointment were not needed. I saw the psychologist, guess I"m OK there. Went and had breathing test, guess I can breath, Today upper G.I., ultra sound, and blood work, then back to the pulmonary Dr. for follow up on test. Friday the cardiologist. and the 3RD the Nutritionist. I think I'm ready.. maybe they will move me up.

I have had a few things happen the past few weeks that only grant this is the best thing I will have done. I had just told my sisters I was having surgery as we were having lunch at the hospital. As we went back we got to the elevator and got on Of course I was the last one on and what should happen? the dam over load bell rang. With tears in my eyes I stepped off. Then I was again at the elevator with my husband, mom, son, daughter in law and this time I was on the elevator when some skinny little B of a nurse gets on and the over load bell rings . I just said must me my clue and stepped out of the elevator. My son joined me. Rick on the other hand stayed and said he bit his tongue long enough and as he got off with the rest of the family he told the nurse what he thought of her. She just smiled at him. You know I am use to children saying things about my size and that is understandable but when adults do it, I get so pissed off!. It hurts so much. I can't wait for the day when I"m on that elevator and someone gets on and the bell rings, I will gladly get off and not have the last large person go through the embarrassment that I did. Dad did great he had his leg amputated and is feeling so good. He came home on Friday. I am going to weigh-inn today at Dr.S. hope it goes well. Nothing has crossed my lips other than protein. Hope they show a loss. Their scales do not match mine. I have met so many great people on lap band talk. I feel so lucky to have the support for them that don't even know me. I know we are all going through the same thing. And to hear about their success gives me such hope and confidence that I am doing the right thing. I think this is the first time I feel so positive about what I am doing. I shared with certain family and friends what I"m doing. Because we are such a close family it was important to me that they know. I was really afford to talk with my closest uncle Bob because he always knows the right way to do things and has many times told me you can do it on your own. Will after talking to my aunts I told them I was not going to tell Bobby and they new why and agreed. I could not stand my self for not sharing with him what was to be one of the most important things in my life to do. So the opportunity came when he called me to check in on dad. I said I have some news to share.. he said oh please nothing bad... I said oh now it the best news. I am have weight loss surgery. His first words were REALLY! I went on telling him what I was doing never giving him a chance to talk I ended by saying any questions about the surgery ?" he just said "I"m so Happy for you" BUT! oh great here it comes........." I want you to know I love you for who you are and what you are. I am so proud of you for doing this and I'm with you 100%." I just cried.... Its getting close to time to head to the Dr.. Gee nothing to eat and drink till after 10 this morning.... GRRRRR

Hope everything works out great for you. I will say a prayer for you .I hope my surgery will come soon.

Best wishes cindy:thumbup: