The weekend is very difficult for me. My husband is home. We have places to go, which causes us to be out much of the day on Saturday and Sunday. This in turn causes us to miss meals or go out to eat. And this is where I have difficulty. Going out isn't the problem.

The problem is that I want to eat. And I want to eat the wrong foods for me. Usually we eat Mexican, which contains a lot of carbohydrates. Usually I don't order my own meal because I can never actually eat a whole meal for myself. I order, and my husband eats my meal and I have a few bites. But then there's the tortillas, drinks, and dessert.

I need to learn to control myself when I'm out. I almost always end up sick in the bathroom before I learn the day's. Another problem is that the lesson I learn I have to learn over and over again. I guess I haven't actually learned the lesson yet.

Only eat foods I can digest: meat. And eat slowly. Usually when we eat, I'm so hungry that I just want to inhale rather take small bites and chew my food well. I still have a lot to learn. I believe this was theproblem today, because I tried to eat foods that I can tolerate. I just tried to eat too fast.

When will I learn these lessons so that they don't have to continue to present themselves?

Something to think and pray about.

Until tomorrow.

meals:

breakfast two bites of donut, Venti Java Chip decaf Frapaccino

lunch: chicharron, 4 oz. Dr. Pepper,

dinner: cup cappaccino, two bites arrachera, pinto beans, small eggplant

snack: slice cheese cake, Polish cookie (from neighbor), two cups cappaccino