I'm really questioning what the h*** I'm doing. Idon't know what I want. I know I want to lose weight, but I don't seem to want to do the work. I don't want to be hungry and sometimes I am and somethings I'm not. Sometimes its head hunger and sometimes I really am hungry. I just want to be normal and lose weight like all the other people. I really thought that I would not have hunger and that I would only be able to eat a small amount. Well neither has happen. I can still eat a horse, although I do have to chew,chew an eat slow slow. I really believed that I would only be able to eat 1/2 cup, not the 2 cups I eat most of the time. I thought I would not be hungry, I knew that I would have fight the head hunger, but its really hard to fight head hunger when you don't feel full. Sometimes I'm really down and other times I glad I have the band. I know I would have gained durning the last seven months instead of losing. I'm glad that I have lost 35 lbs, but I'm still in all my big clothes and I'm tired of all big clothes. I want to wear cute clothes that are smaller and in style. I feel like a loser most of the time. I read how everyone is doing so great and here I am with only a 35 lb lost. How am I going to do this so that I win and I don't lose my self respect. I know that I can do this. I guess I need some great ideas. I can still do this, I know I have to do this one day at a time, but the days are so long when you struggle all day. I should not be in pitty pot all time eihter. How do I get off that pot? How do I stop worring all the time about food. I just feel like that all I do is think of food and I really though I would get over that when I wasn't hungry all the time. I need some major help.

When did you get banded? Six months about. That would make it about April? May? I was banded in Florida on April 3rd of this year. We live in a motor home on the road most of the year and I convinced my Dr. to preform the lap band on me, promising I would go to one of the groups doctors at least once/a/month until I was back to Florida in November. I didn't. He gave me a 1.6 cc fill in May and off I went. I did pretty good with my apetite until about July. Then all hell broke loose. I started eating larger portions and often. I lost 38 lbs until July. Now I've gained about 6 lbs back and my apetite is off the charts.

We're in the same boat. I want this really, really badly. I've got an appointment on Oct 31st and I want him to recommend a larger fill. I am determined to "start over" and take really good care of myself. You should too. Have you had a fill recently??

Do you go to support meetings to get advice and help with your issues? I know that's what I need. I don't want to let this opportunity slip through my fingers, so I'm going to do everything I'm told to do including exercise. For me that's just walking 3 miles a day and using 2 lb weights 3X/week using "Walk Off The Pounds" What do you think??? RvingDi

RvingDi--went for a fill today 10-23-2007. I'm at 3.7 cc in my 4cc band. I still want to eat. I'm lost when I'm not eating. Eating is such a big part of my life, but I'm determined to beat this addiction. I want to lose at least 10 lbs before we go on vacation in January. Keep up the good work.