Only five more days to go. So hard to believe. I am excited. Sometimes it doesn't even seem like it's real. It's so hard to believe I'm actually taking this step in my life. I have for the first time so many hopes and thus am beginning to dream about the future. Before I just focused on the next meal or thing I could put in my mouth.

My husband has never known me thin. The smallest I've been since we've been together is about 230. Which actually I feel pretty good at that weight. I still feel attractive for the most part. I quit feeling attractive a long time ago. It is going to be so much fun to watch the transformation take place. It has already begun. My hubby said today he could tell I've lost weight. Nice to hear. If I wasn't having surgery I'd probably start to sabotage myself since I'd received a compliment. That's what I've done in the past. Once people start to notice I start to feed myself a little more each day until the weight is back.

But not this time. This time I have begun to visualize what I used to look like in high school and have begun picturing myself that size again. I want it. I have a lot of things that I planned to do in my life that have gotten put to the way side because of my weight. Horses is one of the major things. It's always been a dream. but now I have them but can't do anything with them because my butt is inhibiting my agility, movement and motivation to go out and do anything with them. But that is going to change. And in 5 days I am getting the tool to help me achieve this goal. How great it is!

I've got to put the baby to bed.

I haven't ridden the bike yet today. If hubby goes to bed early enough I will ride it then. I consumed 840 cals today.

Take care of yourselves! :confused:

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