:help: Well today is a new day and I feel miserable. My body aches and I am bigger and bigger and bigger. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and downed some cookies and milk. I am truly out of control and I eat like a true addict. I will ask Dr. M if he can refer me to a psychologist to help me deal with my emotional problems with eating so I can start to get a grip on things before surgery. I want to join the Y but I feel like I am always so tired and I don't know how I am going to be able to work out. I have a feeling that this job is not going to be able to let me get healthy. It is kinda hard to work out when I always feel like I could fall asleep! Why can't I motivate myself to move and to eat right? I feel like such a loser. :angry:think Yesterday I hardly ate and the scale keeps moving upwards.....I need to move my bootie or something. I will be sooo embarrassed when I go to the consultation this weekend and C. sees how fat I truly am.....

hey

My name is Traci, and I have been where you are, and it truly sucks ass.

In Feb and March of this year I was the same way. It killed me to get up and get off the couch. I would rather of stayed in bed than I would walk around the house. The more I didnt want to do anything, the more I gorged on food. I drank over 24 Mt dews a week, fountain drinks every single day...32 o's...and just really didnt care becuase what the heck, I was already fat, what was a few more bites or one more drink???

I started my weight loss journey In April. Got approved and was within 1 month away from surgery....I was sooooo ready.

The start of May I bought a single speed bike from Walmart, and started riding 2-3 miles. Damn, it use to just kill me.....

Once I was approved, I went in for my surgery consult, and immediatly started the liquid diet....DAMN...that was the hardest thing.....I cheated, but not in big ways...Like I would have some lunch meat or something...but no huge things.

My surgery went so well, and I was determend to make this work.

At first there is not real tightness in the band, so it is definatly will power to stay motivated. The first few months I lost 10-13 lbs each month. The past few, I am down to 6-8. It stinks.

I started cyclying more, and bought a hybrid bike with gears, and have been riding usually on the weekends anywhere from 15 miles to 42. I just completed my first 40 mile ride last weekend....

Some days it seems like it is harder than others, and I slip and drink a soft drink or 2, or eat something I shouldnt...but.............

Last night I was able to go into a NORMAL store and buy a dress....

It was a awesome feeling and wonderful motivator.

Dont give up on yourself......Just know that it is normal to eat allot before the procedure is done, it is what they call last supper syndrome, and allot of people do it everyday until there surgery. IT IS NORMAL>

As far as being tired....that will get better....try walking just a little....any little bit will make you feel so much better....and soon, you will be walking miles.

Please feel free to PM me, or email me any time if you would like to talk.

I am from Indiana...

Traci

Hi- my name is Tina. I felt a lot of the exact same things you described. Once I started looking into having this procedure done it was like if my arm bent my mouth opened. I gained close to 20 pounds in a little over a month. How depressing!! I am on the pre-op diet now and find my self cheating a little here and there. I try not to beat myself up too much. I'm doing this to help change my habits and it's not gonna happen overnight. At least it hasn't yet.

I think seeing a counselor or something is a great idea. I've been thinking of that myself.

Also as far as being tired all the time. Have you had a sleep test done? It could be partially because of sleep apnea. For me personally although I found out I have moderate sleep apnea I know I also suffer from depression- a lot of it looming around my weight and eating habits- and that can make me so lathargic it's awful. My doctor also said the hormonal imbalances being obese causes can really mess with all of our systems. Great huh?

A lot of the things we go through aren't the most pleasant things but we don't have to go through them alone. Take care of yourself and keep in touch if you'd like.

Good luck!

Tina