Dear Diary,

I've been feeling so ashamed and guilty. I haven't been doing what I need to and know I must do to lose weight. Lately I've taken to eating cream puffs... not a recommended food. I'm eating well until dinner then I eat a cream puff (a large one).

At my last check up I was shocked, I had lost 8 pounds in a little under 4 weeks. I couldn't believe it. I have been cutting back on other foods and not paying attention to protein counts or calories. My big worry was low energy and starting to lose my hair. I have been writing down what I was eating though. After seeing the doctor I went home and studied my food journal. After adding the calories and protein grams I found some days I was under 1000 calories with maybe 30 grams protein. Now I can clearly see where My cutting back-so-I-can-eat-cream puffs diet was getting me. Plus my weight hadn't gone down in awhile. Dr. said my body was going into starvation mode and was trying to hold onto the weight. So I started keeping track on Free calorie counter.com and started taking Biotin to supplement my vitamins. I had read this will help with hair loss. My dietician said I need 56 grams protein and a minimum of 1200 calories daily, so I really focus on getting at least that amount. I'll see dr. again in 6 weeks. He said he will probably give me a small fill. It will be my first fill and I'm not sure how I feel about it. It's probably what I need.

Shortly after I made the changes in my diet I started to drop weight again. I still can't say I'm off the cream puffs--but I am trying hard.

At this moment I can't honestly endorse the lap-band. Mainly because I'm the one who is controlling whether I will lose weight or not. The band is not really doing anything at this point. I don't want to discourage anyone I just wished I had known how much you need to count on yourself at this stage of the game. (Unfilled and unfulfilled).

I know the band is a tool but I sure wish it would stop the cravings-- sadly it doesn't. Anyway I will keep you posted.

Hopefully with more hair and energy :car:

When you get to the sweet spot, you will still have to watch want you eat. You will not be hungry, but the head hunger is hard to control. I find myself grazing and then realize that I'm not hungry, just old habits that still come back to haunt me. I think we will alway have to be very aware of what we are doing. I also think the band helps along the way to be more aware of what we are doing.

Good luck and stick with it, I think down the road you will be glad you did it.