Its been already a long process and I realize I'm just getting started. I began feb of 2006 with the physicians assisted weight loss program at memorial in chattanooga, tn. I lost around 32 pounds prior I had lost about 13. Never even considered surgery until I saw so many others having in a looking great. When I found out about the lapband and how safe it appeared to be, I decided maybe--then right as I was beginning to fully commit. I hit a snag with insurance needing weight records for the last five years. I had been so depressed from my being overweight that I did not allow doctors to weigh me for many of the 5 years. Just as I was beginning to except not having the surgery found out that there was miscommunication and that because of my bmi my high blood pressure my prediabetise I did qualify but I would have to have a physc evaluation from the doctor of my insurance choice. I did that long test and now I'm waiting going on three weeks for the results so that my much delayed surgery can be schedualed. I'm afraid that with all the ups and down of everything that I will gain weight while waiting so I decided just tonight to begin my excersise plan just as if I already have been banded and to go back to eating exactly how the nutricianist taught me so that when I am approved there will be no delays at all and I'm a creature of habit so I need to continue to build on the good habits I learned last year and not slip so easily back into the bad. Hopefully this journal will help me become more accountable for my actions.

today is the first day of the rest of your life...you are doing the right thing to go ahead and do the progrsam while waiting for everything to come together.. i could totally relate to you about not weighing for many years... i wouldnt even look at my shadow on the wall or reflection as i passed a window... now i have been banded 6 weeks ago and lost 26 pounds so far... i am not having to battle that hunger wolf anymore.. i am not hungry and feeling lighter on my feet and lots more energy... believe me losing weight feels better than all that food did going down... hang in there and change yourself.. Brenda