Yesterday we had a cookout with my fiance's family for the 4th, and we had a good time. HOWEVER... His sister and I get along great, she's a big girl,too, but once in a while I catch her doing things to try and trip me up. Sometimes I think she's jealous of me "stealing" her baby brother. I'll catch her glaring at me when she thinks I'm not looking, and weird things like that.

I've been trying to get her to come be banded with me, but she kind of shrugs it off, and I think it's because she is one of those people who enjoys having somthing to be upset about, if that makes sense. Well I made it clear that I didn't want any of my trigger foods brought to the house, because it's no secret that I just began my pre-op diet and have been doing AWESOME.

Well we took a walk to the beach, and on the way back, she stopped into the grocery store for some "things". She comes out with smartfood popcorn...

I didn't really think much of it, because hell, I was excited, it's my favorite junkfood! Well, she kept saying things like "you were doing great on your diet until I came over,huh?"...and stuff like that. I didn't think anything of it until after they went home and she insisted the smartfood stay at my house. I walked into the kitchen to talk to my fiance,he looked at me with my arm in the bag, and all of a sudden it registered.

She did it on PURPOSE!!!!

The psychiatrist told me that it would happen at my pre-op evaluation. She said some people can't handle that you're changing the dynamic of your relationship with them, or that they're insecure of themselves and will want to keep me down... I didn't think it would reallly happen to me, though!!!!!!

Has that happened to anyone else????

Yes, I understand how other's call my being banded the "EASY WAY OUT". Like I'm supposed to suffer and struggle in order to lose weight the "right way''. I tried many diets and lost and regained more. I did my share of struggling.

Everyone I talked to about my desire for this procedure were all against it. Not even my best friend was supportive. I finally gave up trying to convince everyone. I'm doing it for me. I'm the one that has to live with myself. So I was more determined than ever. I surprised the heck out of everyone by doing what I needed to do to get started on this new journey. All the nasty comments hurt, but I know it is their problems and issues, not mine. Now I feel stronger and more confident in myself. I can do it!

Don't let anyone get you down and also try to remember they may not be totally aware that they're sabotaging you. My sister admitted she was envious. She wished she could have surgery to make her eat less. I told her gain 100 lbs. and you can. She's telling me I can lose over a hundred pounds on my own and yet she's struggling to lose only 20 lbs..

I'm no longer hurt by the things she said to me. She's just afraid I will end up weighing less than her. So now she sees the positive changes in me and now she tells me how inspiring I am to her. She's really proud of me now.

Take Care and Good Luck!

Bouncy Girl