I trying to get stuff ready for a garage sale at Dana's tomorrow. I have stuff in the van, but DH won't be home till late, so can't get stuff for the truck till later.

I weight again this am down to 268.2 this morning. Here goes the yo-yo between to numbers. I did do better yesterday with my drinking. Of course that included a protien shake that I had for lunch. I still am able to eat a lot. I worry that I have stretched out my pouch. I'm eating around 2-3 cups of food at a time. I do pretty good between meals. I don't snack very often. Not like I use to, which was pretty much all day long. It was just one long meal from time I got up till I went to bed. I now go 2-3 hours at time and some times I don't even think about eating. Thats amazing to me because I have thought so much about food all my life that even a couple of hours without a food thought is a miricle in its self.

I still can't trust that I will ever be thin or thinner then I am now. Its be so long I don't even remember being thin any more. I think I need to change my thinking. I get really discouraged because I can't believe that this will work for me. Nothing has ever worked for me, so why would this. This thinking is very distructive, because if I get just a down then I just want to throw in the towel and eat whatever is available. I'm trying not to buy things that will be easy to grab and eat. Thats what I like to do, is grab and eat. I had a very hard time this morning trying to decide what to eat for breakfast. 1st I wanted something very easy to grab and eat. 2nd I don't care for breakfast foods. 3rd I don't want to take the time to cook something.

Will I every learn to be a normal person :faint:

Hi, maybe you should reconsider not buying things you can just grab and eat, and do exactly the opposite. I also do not want to cook, and want to just grab something and eat it. So buy those things you can just grab and eat with a minimum of work - Lean Cuisine Spa Cuisine frozen meals for example, are low carb and high protein. I love chicken broth with a scoop of unjury unflavored protein in it - can't stand drinking the sweet protein stuff all the time. I am not banded yet, but on the pre-op diet. I feel for you and all you're going thru - I have many of the same thoughts myself, and want this surgery to work so much for me. Hang in there, I think you can do it!!!!! Edith