Finally made the call
What has posessed me to make a decion that will in tern effect the rest of my life!! I really do not know how all this has came about!:omg:
But the rest of my life hopfully will be longer then the path im currently on if i dont do something about this weight! Im 126kg which is around 270lbs OUCH!!! I cant remember getting here its a long life journey that needs to end. I do know too much food and no working out=ME!!!!!
Im currently depressed and frankly have no real motivation to do anything this is my last option and if it fails well so be it Im just meant to be big!:hungry:
i know there will be some of you that say that i should think positive. My response to that is Well here iam making a dramatic lifestyle choice and its a big step for me so cut me some slack! LOL . I think im in denyal and i never thought I was until I tried to hide myself under loads of makeup today to make myself look attractive! but it doesnt work anymore I cant hide the fat that has built up over 28 years under foundation. I cant hide it under my size 26 clothes and i cant hide it from myself anymore. My husband is supportive but i find it offencive that he is. I mean i think he must think im ugly and fat and must secretly be repulsed by me!! But if he wasnt supportive i would be angery at him!! POOR GUY;)!!!
Im in a pickle confused about who im and what I want to be but if anything i need to do this for myself and for my life i dont wont to be another statistic and i certainly dont want to see the day where my 2boys get ridiculled cos there mother is fat.
So i picked up the phone and made the first step wish me luck my journey starts on the 16 Aug where i will meet the Doctor for the first time!!
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