I'm really feeling adrift with my food. I really don't know what to eat. I so afraid to try bread, salad, and most meats. I'm not a breakfast person, but have been drinking a protien shake, chocolate with pro complex, 340 cal , 15 carbs, 63 grams protien and 2 fat. It just doesn't stay with me. I hungry within couple or three hours. Lunch is a what ever is left over from the night before. Supper is some kind of meat, veggies. I take my pill with pudding after crushing them. I know I getting to many calories, somewhere around 1500. Yet at times food gets stuck and I don't feel so good. I can eat something some times and not at other times. I still not losing any weight. My scales bounce between 277 and 279. I hate my clothes they are not fitting right. They are too big, but the next size is to tight. Part of the problem is my big butt. If it fits the butt its to big in the stomach area. Almost all of the legs are too tight around the calves. My shirts are to big through the shoulders, but tight around the hips. I must be just built weird. I have know idea what I will wear to New York, but guess I had better figure it out. Just have a week till I leave. Can't wear t-shirts to the view, need to get something to wear. Hope I can do all the walking that is involved in being there. I really looking forward to getting away for a few days. I get really tired of worring all the time, don't think I will not worry while I gone , but may it will be better. I really need to figure out my diet. I read last night that some of the people were going to weight watchers, or doing nurti-system. I cant afford nurti-system. I was thinking that maybe I would by some south beach forzen entrees and see if I could get by on them, maybe lunch. Breakfast is just not going down this a.m. Guess I wil fix protien shake, before my grandkids get here.