It's 2:12am day 2 pre-op diet...I can't sleep because i slept during the day yesterday (studying all night the night before for exams).

I am thinking about food, it is unbelievable, i could eat anything right now...I won't, i can't.

I will definitely look back on these 10 days as probably the hardest thing ever once i get past them!

No wonder i could never stick to any diets...at least now at the end i have the prospect of the band, health, weight loss...before i would've given in to the hunger because the weight loss would seem distant, impossible.

It is the first time in my life where i can i WILL weigh less tomorow than i did today, or less in a month than i do today...etc. It is the first time where i can say, WHEN i lose weight and mean it...not just saying it.

I think i'm going out for a walk...i dont care that its almost 2:30am....

And now i hear all about bandster hell...aka the weeks on fluids and mushies...great. My last real meal was 2 days ago...and i wont have one for like 1 month...agghhh. Writing this down makes it easier i guess. Anything to get it out of my head.