Today is Tuesday. By Thursday, we are supposed to hear the news....

No one is working - there is no work to do. We are pretty much hanging out and listening to the radio, reading, playing games, or studying (me).

Everyone is depressed.... Except for one co-worker had a job interview yesterday. He came in all suited up in a tie. No one was surprised, and I hope he gets the job. It sucks to KNOW that you are going to be unemployed and not be able to do anything about it. I guess I should surf for jobs - just to see if there are any worth pursuing - but I am not holding out much hope.

I applied for the crash-course teacher training yesterday. I KNOW that if I were willing to go with Special Ed, I could get in, for sure. But, English & Language Arts are more "me". I just don't know if I have quite enough love for Special Ed. It takes a bloody saint to do that - and I am NO saint.

My Spanish classes start on May 7th. This is a good thing. Being truly fluent in Spanish again will make me that much more marketable, no matter what I teach. If I get fluent enough, I can do Bilingual Ed - which would make me employable until I die. I will have plenty of time to study... at least until I get another job. It appears severance will pay my salary thru June - which means that I have at least that long to look. All I can say is THANK GOD I have that long... it may very well take every minute of that time to find something suitable.

That assumes that I don't get accepted to the crash-course. If I do get accepted, I will have to decide what to do....

I am very glad that I got my band when I did. It will be that much easier to find a job since I lost some weight. It seemed like every pound off has made people react that much better to me. It's amazing. Now that I have cheekbones and only one chin, people can see me again. For a while, I was the elephant in the corner.... nobody wanted to notice or talk to me. Now, apparently, I am down to mere hippo size and much less threatening... :heh:

Anyway - only two more days of sitting here killing time. I made DH swear we would go to the gym tonight. We both need to get into the habit and right now, I need his help to force myself to do anything....Thank God for my husband. I would surely have completely fallen apart by now if it weren't for his constant love and appreciation. Even at my fattest, he still told me I was "hot" and sexy. And even when things seem the most chaotic, he is my anchor. Marrying him was the smartest thing I have ever done, I think.

The band was the 2nd smartest... Cause even through all this, I am not gaining pound after pound. The last time I was unemployed, I gained 30 pounds in five months. I am so glad that won't be happening this time. I may not be losing anything - but at least I am not ballooning upward.

So, that's where my head is today. I just got a line on a mortgage company desperate for people with A-Paper experience - so maybe I will do what I have usually done in the past and get another job right away. A couple of months of double salary would be pretty nice...

Fingers crossed.....