Well I have found the past week and a half incredibly difficult. I have not been able to stop thinking about food. I feel like an addict trying, and failing, to detox. I have cheated every day except today! I just couldn't get control of myself. I didn't realise just how much pleasure I got from food and eating. I felt like my best friend had been taken from me never to be seen again! I know this is irrational but the 'need' to eat was so overpowering I just gave in. I truely admire people with will power!

Luckily I seem to have gotten over this difficult time and I haven't cheated, or wanted to cheat, at all today! YAY! It is such a relief! I can only put the sudden change of heart and mind down to the support of my lovely boyfriend and the lapband site. I had been avoiding it during my 'cheating' stage as I think I just didn't want to NOT cheat. If that makes sense. I finally got back on it today and I'm really pleased I did. It is very supportive and I just feel so much better and sort of 'at peace' with the diet now. Gosh, what a head case!

I also weighed myself today and I'm really pleased that dispite my best efforts to sabatage my progress I have lost 2.6kg/5.72pounds. I'm really hoping I will have lost a bit more before my op. The last thing I want is for my surgeon to tell me I haven't done enough!! I have really tried, really struggled, and now I'm finally suceeding!

MUST KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!!!!!!

I had HARD GOING for 2 years. I gave in to all my addictions......then a week ago i realized that by now i could have lost almost 100lbs or more....thats a BIG DEAL....and it's no ones fault but my own.

Its ok to have HARD GOINGS.....just please dont do what i did....for 2 years....ill work with ya!!!