April 9, 2007

Today was my consult with Dr. Kirshenbaum. It was quick, I didn't really have a lot of questions for him (thanks to this site). I didn't get to make a sugery date, Paula left for the day. She will call tomorrow to schedule one. I am hoping for a Friday so I can work on Monday??? Time off of work is my big concern, I hate to take any time off. I don't know how I am going to deal with that??

I found out that my BMI is 50, which is higher than I thought. I calculated 48 or 49. No big shocker, I told her that I deffinately feel like 50 BMI.

I am suprised that I didn't cancel my appointment because I don't believe in myself. Too many failed attempts. This will be the last straw.

My family is very supportive. I wished the surgery was over already and a few months behind me.

Hey Mal!

I felt exactly like you did. It's great your family is very supportive! I can't belive I'm down 14 lbs. Depending on your job I would take at least a week off. Even if you don't have a lot of pain, you will be tired afterwards. I am on day 11 I am off liquids, but scarred to eat to much pureed food. You won't belive how fast just a little food will fill you up! I am so tired! I do hair and I was going to go back to work last Sat., but there was no way! You are eating so little you have no energy. I am going to go back tomorrow just for 4 hours, we'll see how that goes!

Take care!

Hi isabellesma,

Thanks for the comment on my journal. I figured that I should keep track of my thoughts and feelings since I tend to forget a lot!

You have a tough job. I can't really afford to take time off (not really financially...reputation wise). I run my own Preschool in my home. I don't have a backup (neither do most of my families) and every day I take off or close early, I am putting my families in a bind. I know it sounds like I place my needs last and I do, a huge fault that I have...always thinking of others first, but I am going through with this surgery for ME. I hope I can manage, I have 18 year old son that is home for most of the day, he is willing to help as will my 12 year old. I just have to do it!! Since I am at home, I can take it easy AND I can lay on the couch and relax during nap time!!

Take it easy tomorrow! Let me know how your day goes.