Yesterday was Easter, it was the first day that I was really down. I hate the holidays. My family is so fractured and we don't do things together any more. I just hate it. I wish that my dh would not be so rigid when it come to our children. I wish he could forgive. Sometimes it worrys me that he's that way. There is always that what if that I live with, what if I don't do want he wants, what if I disappoint him. I hate what ifs.. I really wanted to eat something yesterday. I didn't.

I'm eating about 1200 to 1500 calories a day. Need to get the calorie count down to 1000 a day. Maybe it will be easier when I get my first fill on the 25th. I have to start walking, but its been so cold out side. I suppose to warm up this week. I'm trying to be more active around the house also. I just want this weight gone, now.

Things will be better.

Hi Carol,

It's me again, oh we have something else in common, we both have controlling husbands - oh I know how that can be so frustrating and that's why we have a relationship with food to get away from our husbands. That was our therapy, eating cookies and ice cream to numb ourselves from them; BUT now we have to figure out how to do that without eating the wrong things. Don't worry we'll figure it out!!!

Reesh