Tomorrow is the big day and I do have a case of the last minute jitters. My only fear is dying in surgery. If I do I hope Baye sues the heck out of the Dr & posts to the world the dandgers of the surgery. However, the reality is this is an ultra safe surgery and they have reassured me many times over I have nothing to worry about. I will just be so relieved when I wake up after surgery and I am alive! :clap2: God just get me through surgery and I will happily do the rest of the work.

I must admit I have had thoughts on not doing this but all related to my fear of the surgery. However, I've paid and completed my pre-op stuff makes me feel obligated. Plus the peer support on this site helps me feel reassured. Of course I guess dead people don't post after surgery do they? Ha! Ok I am getting crazy now. I am going to spend the rest of the evening getting into the right frame of mind.

I know I am doing the right thing. This will be the tool I need to get me back a healthy energetic life I so desire. I can get back to being the king of wife and mom I want to be for my family.

I know the hardest part will be dropping my little girl off at daycare in the morning. If I can make it through that I think I will be ok.

Ok, I will post again after surgery. Then the real work can begin and actually that is the part I am most looking forward to.

C