Diet nerves.
From 06-03-2018
I have always been easily discouraged. I will often not try something because I "know" I will fail at it, or I may do some other self-sabotaging thing. This is a terrible way to live life, and I've only recently started working on it.
This weight loss surgery is something I know I need to do, something I even WANT to do, and I am determined to give it a shot even though I "know" (untrue) it's just another thing I will likely fail at. I'm trying to push past my automatic hide-under-a-rock reaction.
So, keeping in mind my default self-defeating attitude, I am already struggling with this diet. It was only YESTERDAY that the surgeon told me I needed to lose 20 lbs and that I need to keep a food log and try to eat only 1200 calories/day. I guess I'm struggling with the IDEA of the diet. 1200 calories is crazy! I'm HUGE, how am I going to successfully function in day-to-day life on so little sustenance? I'm going to get low-blood-sugar migraines, I'm going to be even tireder than I already am, I'm going to be so so hungry all the time.
The thing is, I have barely even started the diet, but I am already psyching myself out, worrying before it's necessary, my brain is screaming for me to eat a huge amount of whatever I want in protest. Am I strong enough to withstand? I'm not so sure. So then how am I going to be successful with the surgery??
Lots for me to think about. I want this so badly, but I am AFRAID that I won't be successful. Being so full of fear can really squash all the joy from life.
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