I'm doing my count down diet before surgery on the 17th. I've been eating lots of premier protein, Greek yogurt, and chicken. I have a bad habit of slacking off on my water intake during my days off and it really bit me in the ass this week. I've been consuming quite a bit more protein and have taken out juice and milk as sources of fluid to drink. On top of that, I have been trying to stop drinking when I eat.

Gave myself a kidney stone that felt like the worst thing ever.  Hopefully, since I'm 92oz deep in water consumption today and still going, my symptoms will clear and the stone will pass quickly.

I have 8 days left till the surgery and I can't stop the swirl of information clouding my thoughts and making me space out.

I've never had a anything more than a dental surgery before. I find this twilight exciting and confusing.

I've rifled through youtube once again, looking at more and more videos of people who got their surgery and what they have dealt with.

I keep wanting to take pictures of my facial hair to compare before and after but I can't stand the feeling of it. It drives me crazy. I hate it.

I'm making one last attempt to let it grow a few days before surgery, but I won't place an expectation on myself that I'm not sure I can comfortably meet. It's so upsetting to me. I hate PCOS. I can't wait to have this tool to help change my life.

When I get nervous, I just think about how happy I was when I was on the Ideal Protein diet and got down to 170. I was so hungry and dizzy all the time, but I was just so happy to be back in my old clothes again. Like I could just taste the hope every day was saturated in.

I want to do this. I want to feel like myself again. If I need surgeries afterwards for loose skin, I don't care. I just want to get back to my life.