Well, if there was any lingering doubt about my need for a fill, it has vanished. My weight at my one-month follow-up visit was - gasp - the very same as it was on the day of surgery! Uh - yeah. Not so good.

Of course, I have been eating everything in sight - so I guess that might explain it...I suppose I just have to do everything back-assward, since it seems that I have last supper syndrome, AFTER the surgery.

But, such is life. I have my fill scheduled for the 21st - right after I get back from NY and another follow-up with Doc Fox in Mid-April to see how that whole fill thing is working out. I guess I will just go on as I have been until I get my fill and start all over.

The Doc says that I should probably just schedule the 2nd fill for 3 wks after the first one. Maybe I will just sched. for the very same morning I go for the follow-up. Might as well get it all done at once...

I am still out of control at work, and so far, the concept of coming in earlier has failed miserably. So, I have been to the gym a few times - but not nearly enough. It seems that DH is flaking out on that, too. He hasn't even harassed me about it in a week. Not good. We both need to go.

The only light in the tunnel is that I took my official measurements. An inch here, and inch there - half an inch on an extremity or two. The biggest size difference was the chest measure - apparently, I have lost 3 inches of ugly fat off the rolls on my back. That is awesome.

I am still keeping all the floppy bits bound up - which is fine, except that it means sex must be planned in advance. It's hard to feel sexy in a cotton sports bra and a girdle.... and access to all the parts is limited unless I strip down. I guess we are just going to have to schedule that event.

Well - I have to get back to the insanity that is my job. Apparently, a file sitting on my desk for more than 2 hours constitutes "backed up". (Even though 24 hour turn time is standard).

Well. Such a cheery entry. I am going to have to work on an attitude adjustment. This might assist in the whole weightloss concept.