Oh gosh, I haven't heard stomach growling as often and so loud as since I got banded!

Usually I always thought I was hungry when my stomach was growling but now I have to change those thoughts. I am not hungry I'm not hungry I'm not hungry. I've read that it's a common thing to have your stomach growling after getting banded so I'm at ease with it. It's just weird.

Specially if I'm lying on my back, it's so loud that I could possibly record it on my phone! But no haha I wont.

Yesterday my family had homemade pizza. Raise your hands if you love how pizza smells! OMG, it was driving me crazy! I'm telling you. I got into bad mood and thought my family wasn't supportive enough.

My mind even got into this dark place, regretting what I had done, that I could never eat pizza again or go to a fast food place and eat my heart out. Yes my mind really got there and it was the first time since the surgery day that I had these negative thoughts.

But those dark thoughts didn't last for long. I began thinking about all the great things I will experience if I reach my goal. Like being able to sit in an airplane without feeling like I'm a giant. Being able to walk into any clothes store to see if they have something I like. Being able to exercise and participate in family walks. Being able to move around like normal people without looking like a penguin. Walking up stairs without being out of breath. Feeling better in my back. Not feeling so conscious when walking into a room and thinking everyone is watching you because of your weight. Not being afraid to meet family or friends you haven't seen for a long time. Going to the pool without thinking about what other people think (well that will probably never go away but at least it's not because of your weight)

So not being able to binge eat on fast food VS all that! Yes I can do it!! And I don't have to binge eat. I can have a pizza slice, or cut a burger in half. Well if my stomach can handle that kind of food. And it's not like I have this kind of food all the time. Maybe 1-2 times a month.

I guess being on liquid diet and then soft food is playing with my mind now but only 5 more days!! I can do it!

But don't worry, I know my fight is not finished after the 5 days. I know what will happen after that. I will have to slowly find out what food suits me, and gradually try out stuff. No fast food for me, I know! Even though I crave it, I am not going to have it.. yet.

The mind is a tricky thing