So I have not lost any weight in 2 days...disappointing! I am stuck at 221. I was so looking forward to being under 220. but not this time..So I started to reevaluated what I am eating (Drinking) and I know I was adding fruit to my shakes and thought, oh I better stop that!! so I did last night and today.... and then there was my little snacking I did yesterday on peanut butter pretzels. I only had like 5 total and they are those tiny little square ones... but regardless I was not supposed to have them..so this morning I threw them in the trash... today so far I have been really good and plan to be for the next 5 days. I really want to be under 220. its been a really long time since I was under that weight. I feel like exercise is one of the most important tools and I do walk, but I think I need to add in weights as well. I have an entire curves gym in my basement so I think my next goal is to start using those machines. I am sure I will be very weak after surgery, but I will do what I can and work myself up to them after surgery....

Feeling excited about the surgery...still nervous.. I think I am more worried about the pain afterwards and the gas pains in my chest that everyone talks about...and then the pain in my throat from the tubes that will be down there...and then I worry about possibly needing my gallbladder out like alot of people post about. I know they say a 20% chance of that but I keep reading post that people needed theirs out. Scary!.. I am afraid of ending up dehydrated...and most of all I am afraid that I will go back to my old ways and gain everything I will lose back. So scary. They told us in group that we get one honeymoon stage so enjoy it for as long as I can...that once you start gaining you can't go back to the honeymoon stage....So I hope I can stay in that stage forever. My boyfriend and I are Italian and we love food and our families love to feed us...its hard, I am sure everyone has their reasons for eating... I pray that this weekend when we go to his family's house that they understand I am ON A DIET (famous last words) and I can't have pasta and meatballs and bread! fingers crossed they leave me alone with just eating a salad. :-) ok, I better get back to work.....