I have come to the conclusion that this is going to be a highly emotional journey. Yesterday was a BAD day. Got my meds stuck! ICK. Felt nasty, and wanted to eat! I mean REALLY WANTED TO EAT. Somehow I thought that because I wouldn't be able to eat that somehow I wouldn't want to eat. Not true.

I am so thankful for my dear sweet husband though. Last night at the dinner table I sat and wept over my protein drinks because I was so weary of fighting my desire for food all day. He came over and gave me a hug and then prayed over me right there that God would walk right beside me and help me overcome this temptation to eat. Such a dear man!!! And you know - it helped. I am sure that I am going to have other battles of will in the future, but then and there my desire for food was gone. I ate my protein, went and hung out with some friends and was just fine.

I am not great with "the journey" things - I like instant - run and done. But I am going to have to keep in mind that this is a journey. There are going to be good and bad days. There will be days that I can't help but smile because of weight lose, progress made, smaller clothes, more energy, etc.....but there will also be days when I want food and I want it now. I do wonder if this is how an addict feels. Feel bad for them if that is the case!

I CAN DO THIS ~ I WILL DO THIS ~ WITH MY MIGHTY WARRIOR I WILL BE MORE THAN A CONQUEROR!!!!!