Well it's been 10 months now since my lap-band surgery. I'm doing well. The shoulder pain subsided. I just went for a fill yesterday. They only do about .3 cc's at a time because my band is very sensitive. I'm now up to 3.6 cc's in my 10 cc band. Not much but it is working for me. I'm now down to 240 lbs. This past week I've had 3 people at work that I haven't seen in a while tell me that they didn't even recognize me. It is a big change. Down 125 lbs from my highest weight. I am having an issue though. It's like my brain hasn't quite caught up with my body yet. I went on a little mini vaca with my husband and daughter on Memorial Day weekend to Eureka Springs, AR (fourth trip.. love this little town). As I was shopping I would look at something and think this won't fit me. And yet it is the size I'm wearing and it does fit. Also, we were walking the historic downtown with a couple of thousand other people and when I would walk up or down stairs I would wait until someone had passed me. This is what I used to do because I was afraid I wouldn't fit on the stairs with someone else trying to pass. Now, even though I probably would have fit back then, I know I would now and yet I find myself things my 360 lb self would do. Will I ever get past this?? Ugg!!!!

Ok here is another thing that is bothering me. I have had many people make comments about now that I've lost weight I'm going to have guys flirting me or tell my husband that he needs to watch out bc I might leave him. WHAT? That is ridiculous! Ok I have heard of people who had lost a lot of weight and lost friendships, relationships, marriages.. When I got married 14 years ago I weighed about 180 lbs. My husband loved me then and at my biggest. Same goes for me. Those comments really get under my skin.

So this is where I am now. Experiencing alot of emotional and psychological changes other than just physical changes at this point.

This is an interesting journey. I'm still glad I bought the ticket and took the ride.

Believe