So this is the first time since my sleeve that I've experienced this level of stress... and it's taking it's toll I've gained 2 lbs since monday. So now, it's time to buckle down. I know the stress will eventually subside..and that God hasn't given me more than I can handle.. But it really is alot.. I know I should see a shrink, but Im focused on my daughter seeing one. And honestly, I can't afford the copay due to my brother's upcoming wedding ( I need to rent me and my son a tux and get my daughter's dress). I may use the EAP, but that's only 3 visits. We'll see.

Just trying to deal with one thing at a time but too hard...

1)dad having surgery to remove barretts disease next month1

2) daughter issues

3) oldest lost his job, how the hell is he going to pay rent?

4) g/f....ugh... enough said

5) job OUT OF CONTROL

6) possibility of layoffs

7) possible moving out of g/f's house

Hmm.. not the worlds worst list..but c'mon...it weighs on us.

So i have to almost start at square one. I've developed some not so healthy habits lately (sodas). The doc never should have told me i could have some if i let it sit out of the can/bottle for 10 minutes.. I had kicked that addiction, and it's back. Though I prefer it be that over smoking again!!

well i'm off to take child to the shrink...and do some things around the house to keep me moving. think it's time to pull weeds again...