When we have surgery we say that we are doing it for our Heath, that when temptation comes we will be the one to battle and win and in some cases we are. We say when we are subject to birthdays and holidays that our surgery will be more important and we won't let it effect the joy and time we have to be with our family, we won't allow the lack of food to ruin the enjoyment of this experience because after all a birthday is a celebration of ones life and not the glorious cheesecake set before us...... Until that glorious cheesecake is in front of our face.

Since my surgery (3 weeks and 6 days ago) I have had different types of temptations, there have been the chips and snack foods my 14 yo consumes. It was easy enough to take that one out, I created an area in his room that is a snack safe zone and I do not go in there, I don't think about it, I don't touch it. I am a baker and find not in cooking and baking and at 10 days post op the thought of living in my home 1 more min made me want to find the nearest train tracks and just lie there, why? because I'm down and unable to clean, the rest of my family became incapable of cleaning, I don't know. Anyway I bribed my family with a homemade Black Forest cake. Amazing what people will do for cake, I still had a lack of hunger so it didn't bother me. Today is my dads birthday, I made ribs and chicken, Mac n cheese, broccoli n cheese and cheese cake. I portioned out my rib and 2 oz of chicken and 1/4C of broccoli n cheese and sat down to eat and became depressed. I want that stupid cheesecake, but I can't have it, no not even a taste. If I allow myself even one taste I will open Pandora's box and it won't be pretty. I didn't think it would bother me, but it did. I'm heading out on a bike ride now. I'm hoping the fresh air and sun will wash the cheesecake worries away.

Post bike ride.... Macy- 1 Cheesecake-0