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Temptation

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Roo101769

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The past few days have been really hard for me. I don't know exactly why. I made the cake for my friend and wasn't too tempted until I got to the end while icing it. Then they had the shower and I decided to eat. While I didn't eat a whole lot it was stuff I had cut out of my life. I had the whole "this will be my last carry in I can eat" thing going on in my head. ( I went for my last clearance that morning) So I indulged. Made me feel heavy and bloated. After eating well since August 1st it was a wake up call to how I had been living. But today I have been crazy hungry. It's like I woke a sleeping beast inside me. I worked so hard to put it to sleep and one day undid that. I spent the day at my grandmother's house so it was hard to eat well. Breakfast was an Egg White Delight McMuffin from McDonalds and coffee. Not the best but not horrible. Then by two o'clock I was hungry again. We went to Subway where I got a footlong flatbread club to split with my grandma. Again, not horrible. Except I also bought cookies. Ideally they were for my four year old and grandmother. But before I even realized what I was doing I ate some. I am so upset with myself. The worst part is, as I lay here writing this, my stomach is growling. I am still hungry! This is all just reinforcing to me why I need this surgery. I need a tool to help me stay in control. I know I also need to work on my emotional side, why I give in to temptation. I feel I need a "sober eating" coach. Like in AA when you have a sponser. Someone to call when the temptation is great.. Someone to talk me down. Right now I could use that for my eating compulsions. I really pray I can get the surgery soon and begin living with a stomach that works with me instead of against me!

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Try not to beat your self up to much! We all make bad chooses sometimes. Pre surgery I also struggled. The surgery has been life changing to me! though I remind myself daily it is only a tool. At the moment am never hungry and have to remind my self to eat but this will change. I follow what my surgeon and nut tell me completely. Our minds will still try to play tricks on us, I have seen a councillor to help with this and for me it has really helped. Good luck and stay focused x

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I have an addiction to carbs (bread, pasta and sweets). If I eat them I crave more. This was especially true before my surgery. I have had one cupcake, last week at a party. It didn't set well with my sleeve, so, I won't be doing that again.

Since having my surgery (8/6/13) my sleeve has kept me from binge eating (YEA!). I love my sleeve and I know you will too. Stay focused on your goal and remember we are human. We make mistakes, learn from them and move on.

Good Luck on your new journey.

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Roo, would suspect that you are fighting the Carb Monster, and when you ate some cake, a cascade of carb cravings started with an insulin spike. I think some of us are more sensitive to it than others, and It is physiologic. It's not a weak mind, but very powerful body chemistry. It happened to me last night...I ate two gummy Flinstone vitamins (My surgeon recommended Flinstones, the gummy was my idea) and it was downhill from there! And I had been so good. I think the answer is protein, protein, protein, but last night a bowl of oatmeal (filling, low glycemic index) helped me to stop. I believe the surgery and the weight loss are very proactive ways to work with this. For now, we have learned from our experiences, haven't we? Hang in there!!!!!!

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I totally agree with you SeaLegs. It was only after I indulged in carbs that I wanted to eat and eat. I have been maintaining the high protein/ low carb /low fat & calorie lifestyle since August 1st. After the first week it was pretty easy to stay content with it. But after having the sweet icing and cake all I have wanted to do was eat. Today has been a bit better. I have been staying busy, which makes avoiding the food cravings easier. I think I am like you kltklass, a carb adict. It might have something to do with I have PCOS. While my insulin levels are normal, the way my body uses insulin is out of wack. So staying away from carbs probably is the best idea. I really appreciate the support from you all. I am confident the sleeve is exactly what I need and I am so glad I am taking the steps to be where I need to.

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