I've never written a blog so I thought why not give it a try. How did I get here? I'm not too sure. Yes, I'm lieing I know. I've been heavy all my life. "Thick" was good for me . Every year a little more would creep up on me. I had my son and thought, maybe I'll be the lucky one and loose all the baby weight. Fat chance (literally). I always stayed active but, it was never enough. 16 years later and I'm still trying to loose the baby weight. Now it just looks like I'm pregnant with twins. Give me a break. I always thought WLS was for people who were lazy and didn't want to work out. Talk about a change of heart. It's no fun when you don't have the energy for ANYTHING! It feels like my life has been sucked away. I'm tired all the time even when I get enough sleep.....bring on the bed I'm ready for a nap! Nothing is more embarrassing than not fitting on a ride at an amusement park. Being told (after the operator comes over and smashes the chest device on you) that it will not lock and you must get off the ride. I told myself I would never go to another amusement park again. I was mortified!

After some horrific events in my life happened, I decided I was going to make a change. I needed help and I obviously couldn't do it on my own. Sleeve here I come! I went to weight loss seminar and found out that I qualified for bariatric surgery. I was excited!!!! OH, but wait, you have to wait six months, you have to go to a nutrition class, you have to see a nutritionist, get an upper GI, an endoscopy, have monthly weigh ins, go get lab work, drink protein shakes, take vitamins, give up chocolate......WAIT!!! What did you just say? Give up chocolate? That might be the deal breaker! All this while spinning on my head and loose weight at the same time!!! Anyone who goes through all this MUST be serious!!!

So I committed to doing it. And lemme tell you, it's not easy. I am 4 months in and when my sixth month hits and they prepare my paperwork for insurance approval I'm gonna be a nervous wreck! I didn't have to jump through this many hoops when I bought my house!!

I guess I better go to sleep. I can't even say it's because I'm tired. I'm always tired. Can't wait to get some energy back. Then maybe I won't look like the walking dead!