The end of all my clearances is on the horizon. Today I went to the pulmonologist. He is scheduling a blood oxygen test, a chest x-ray and some other test. Not expecting anything negative. But it is what I have to do to get to the next step. Once those tests are done and the clearance is given, then my paperwork will be submitted to the insurance company. I am still very anxious to get to the next chapter. Yet I will admit some nerves are starting to creep in. It is to be expected. Once I wake up from the surgery it will be ok. I will expect to hurt, but if I don't then bonus. I will expect to have to learn how to live with my new stomach, but if it goes smoothly then bonus. I will expect my entire life to change, to shift at least. If it doesn't then I am doing something wrong!!! LOL I cannot wait to be able to be more active. I cannot wait to have a body that allows me to enjoy things I once took for granted. I cannot wait to spend time playing with my daughter. This weekend we spent time doing yard work around the house. It was needed badly. Due to my leg issues and weight I have not been able to do much outside this year. But my leg is feeling a lot better. Yes my knee still hurts, but not as much. And I do still get occasional pain in my calf from the vascular damage, but it is now only occasional. Just losing 19lbs has created that much difference, I can only imagine what my future holds once I lose a significant amount of my weight! This weekend I did yard work and then housework and laundry the next day. I was not so stowed up I could barely walk after. I ached some, but today I am doing ok. This is what I want my life to be. I want to LIVE my life, be an active participant. So any fears or anxiety I may have going into this major surgery, those things are what will keep me going. I am so very excited to see where I will go!!!