I'm starting to feel energized. I'm starting to feel like maybe, just maybe, I can pull this off! I've had a few missteps, I've tested myself, but I haven't completely f'ed this up yet....amazing! I've never stuck to a diet this long with this much determination - 5 months! And this is a new way of life, not just a diet! How is it possible I haven't screwed it up yet? How is it possible I've lost 49 pounds? How is it possible I'm able to check off the goals on my list with regularity and this is all still happening? I'm blown away. I can't believe I'm doing this! I can't believe I've begun to look forward to working out! Me, the lazy, fat girl who loves her couch! Unbelievable!! I'm actually contemplating doing things I never thought I would do, things that scare me, challenge me, push me......and I'm actually starting to believe I can do them....

Here's to four goals down, 1 lb to the fifth goal, and 10 lbs to halfway!!!

• Lose 20 lbs - complete!
  
• Get under 200 lbs - complete!
  
• Lose 45 lbs - complete!
  
• Get to 190 - complete!
  
• Lose 50 lbs
  
• Get to 186
  
• Get to 180
  
• Get to 179 (halfway!)
  
• Get to 165
  
• Get to 160
  
• Get to 155
  
• Get to 150
  
• Get to 145
  
• Get to 140
  
• Get to 135
  
• Get to 125
  
• Get to 120