Another week has come and gone. Was supposed to go camping this weekend, but forgot I have a baby shower to attend (Gah). Upset my mom when I told her I couldn't pick her up for the shower because I really didn't plan on staying through the entire shower. I explained to her I do not like showers of any kind...yes i know, it's my cousin's wifes and we've waited forever for another baby...but ...games/food/chatter.. no thanks! Hell I would've missed my own baby showers if I could've.. I sound evil don't I? I'm just so non girly like. But I know I need to be there. My mom's family is extrememly small (me, my brother and 2 cousins). SO this is a huge event. There better be some good homemade potato salad to make this worth it! LOL..

Well my g/f was still quiet last night. I had to really push to get to her mom's house. I know her mom was happy we were there. She loves my kids even asked them to call her grandma. After we made her mom dinner my g/f informed me she was going to her friends house to watch the remainder of the game..I was not happy, but let it go. I did get a text an hour after saying "I love you sooo much". I guess that was her way of reminding me she needs me? I know she's going through alot of emotion. In all honesty, I had to remind myself how I would be if anything happened to my dad. How would I be? Exactly like her. I'd shut her out (not intending too of course). And hold all emotion inside. Me and my dad are so close that my brother has already prepared his fiance of his duties should anything happen to my dad. He knows he'd have to fly in from Cali to help me cope. Yes, true daddy's girl here and proud of it! Matter of a fact, we had a cancer scare last month with dad. God smiled upon us and he does not have cancer! Thank you Jesus!! We're not 100% out of the woods, but they did say once they remove his barrett's disease, he should be in the clear .

Oh and I was a bad girl for lunch. I ate a burger. it was a kids burger, but a burger nonetheless. feel like poo now.. but i can't say i regret it. It was something I was craving and decided not to deny myself. I refuse to act like i can never eat certain things again... I won't eat them daily, but if i'm craving..im eating.

Well time to finish up here and work and start my weekend! See you monday dearest diary