So I have completed all the testing require by my surgeon.Today I went to my family doc. she is clearing me for surgery. I

am nervous about making the decision. I know it is the right thing to do. But I worry about how I am going to be able to handle all the changes to come. Obviously I have not been successful at dieting or I wouldn't be here.

This is what I am worried about.....

I like food, I enjoy going to happy hour and I love having a glass of wine when my husband and I cook.How is this going to work?

​We have a family wedding, a visit to my daughter college the holidays,do I tell family and coworkers etc...

The positives of this surgery are..

my body will not be in as much pain as it is now (arthritis, fibromyalgia ,asthma)

I hope to have more energy,and of course my clothes will look better on me

.I am not sure if I will qualify according to my insurance plan. My BMI is 37 but as of this moment my blood sugar is high, heart rate was high .But I do not have diabetes(yet) High Blood pressure or sleep apnea.

I will find out around the 3rd week of September 2013.

I will be blogging to keep my self sane. only my daughters and hubby know that I am considering this so you are my connection to people who will understand.