Well...I started this journey with much optimism. I am wrapping my head around the changes I am seeing, I have been learning to do other things with my hands instead of eating...and so far I've been doing great. Today, however, I just don't feel so great. Of course we as women get that "wonderful" visitor EVERY month, and I know some of how I am feeling is due to that. But I have been stuck at the same number on the scale all week now. How is that possible when my eating is little to none, but I am still getting all my protein in AND I'm exercising! This is what has frustrated me all the time in my weight journey. The scale goes up and down, I exercise and feel great, the scale doesn't move...then I would get mad and EAT...NOW I can't do that because I'm not hungry, THANK GOD FOR THAT! I have been eating healthier than ever, exercising and now mother nature decides she wants to throw a wrench in my progress by making an unwanted visit????? I really don't like that woman. My mood today...I just want to sit and cry, then I will be better... ...at least that is what my head tells me. Then I get angry... knowing that I'm doing what's right and the scale isn't moving. Its not going up, but it is not going down. Don't get me wrong in just a couple days I will be a month out of surgery and I am down 21 pounds, I am so very thankful for that, but what can I do to make that dreaded scale MOVE???????????? I'm not into pity parties and yet as I sit here writing this it seems as if that is what I am having...I've been seeing changes...I need to just remember its one day at a time, and I'm going to be better because of this. I'm already down to almost no insulin, just one shot a day, from 5 shots a day! My numbers are great, my energy is up and ...OH MAN, I forgot my vitamins this morning...see what one bad thought contributes to???????????? ugh! I have got to just pick myself up, shake this off and get over the feelings of being down. I do not want to go down that road ever again. I want to be an inspiration, not a burden because of my moods. This is the first day I have admitted to having a down day, but as you see, it's in a blog, I HAVE to be strong and keep my "game face" on for my family. I can't let them see me down. I am blessed and I know this, I am loved, and I can get through this~ I hope everyone remembers this quote: "Believe in yourself and all hat you are. Know that there is something inside you greater than any obstacle" - Christian D. Larson...Today is just a hurdle I need to get over. Be blessed!