"Big changes," she said, rubbing her belly and pointing her eyes towards my bulging belly. I was puzzled - I hadn't been in this store for over two years and was surprized that she was still working there. Nice lady, in her early 60s, and with a weight issue of her own. Then, it hit me....she thought I was pregnant!! I quickly corrected her assumption, telling her "no - I'm not pregnant....but, there are 'big changes' coming soon!!" After numerous apologies from her, I then explained what I was planning on doing and told her - "don't feel bad - there are 'big changes' - but not those!!"

The 'big changes' are definitely being digested....at the same time of being excited, I'm also a little scared and worried! This is a clear and definite change that is, simply put - irreversible. I can't exchange it or return it, or opt out later on - I'm in it for good!

My psych eval is done, as well as my nutritionists' appointments. I have my "Letter of Medical Necessity" completed by my doctor. Everything is in order....

And, the biggest feat of all - I got approved by the insurance company!!! YH!!!

June 23, 2012

Highest weight: 321 lbs (at yesterday's nutritionist's appt)

Goal weight: 170 lbs

Height: 5'10"

Surgery date: 8/5/13

Things I'm doing this week...

The "last meal" phase is getting worn out - I mean, really, how many "last meals" can I have. In the last 6 weeks, I've gained about 9 lbs. This is ridiculous. I have to start slowing down - in only 3 weeks and 4 days, I start the pre-op diet. I have to stop going hog wild (no pun on words) with food!

Like my friend told me (she had the bypass 3 years ago) - "every pound you put on now - has to come off at some point." Point well taken - I'll slow down.