June 25th 2013

Surgery Date: Not Set

Surgery Type: VSG

Ok, I have decided to do this to keep track or to keep a time line of what is going on in my mind. I dont know if anyone will read this or not but if you do hopefully it will help you along the way.

Today has been a littlebit of a different one, im not in the same boat as a lot of people on here are, or at least i dont think i am. I have picked my surgeon, there were only two to choose from in my approved hospital, I have completed my Psch Eval 6/19 and completed my seminar 6/20. I have a telelphone appointment with the surgeons office on 7/3 at 1pm, that i am kind of nervous about becuase i dont know what to expect. they said it can take anywhere between an 45 minutes and a hour. I am the kind of person who wants to get this done now, I kinda wish they would tell me ahead of time what kinda test i need to get done so i can be setting them up and knocking them down rather than sitting here waiting. But i guess i just have to wait.

I just read another blog and all the person talked about is how they could wait until the no solid food period was over because they just wanted a taco, or they just want this or that. I couldnt help but think to myself, here is someone that most likely will fail. Now, dont get me wrong im not wishing failure on anyone, but once you make up your mind and follow through with something as serious as weight loss surgery i think a taco should be the farthest thing from your mind.

Anyway that is the kind of thing that scares me, am i going to be that kind of person, that only thinks about the stuff that i can't or shouldn't eat versus, taking this oppertunity, taking this chance to make a whole new life for myself and run with it.

I'm already making palns, for example, i want to get involved in adult sports, ie the coed basketball team, at glory days sports, volleyball doesnt sound to bad either. there is just so much that i want to do that i cant because of how i allowed myself to get.

Another thing that is on my mind, i heard a doctor say when giving a seminar that it was not the patients fault that they were overweight, that bothers me, it bothers me because it is taking the response ability of someone actions off of them. Now dont get me wrong i know that there are true medically nessary reasons where a person cant lose weight, however (and i'm including myself in this catagory) some of us where just making bad choices with our life, and that choice got us where we are, now we need help to get back where we want and need to be to live healthy.

I dont know what is all going on with me mentally right now but i do know that i am ready to get this show moving. i am ready to be thinner, smaller, healthier, and all in all ready to be around a lot longer. If you found this to be the slightest bit interesting, feel free to follow my blog, there will be more to come.

Have a great day and God Bless!