I hear ya! Sadly, I have first hand experience with your concerns. I had the lapband and it didnt work. After regaining 'ALL and then some' of my lapband weight loss, I heard a few comments about it and got many looks, but I was my own biggest critic. While burying my head in the sand (pretending to ignore my expanding waistline), I couldn't see that I had choices. I believed that I had failed and I let that fear paralyze me for a long time. In hindsight, my fear was the biggest hinderance to my success. I'm so thankful that I found the courage to try again.

Thanks for your word moonchild, I am glad I am not the only one who has these feelings.

That crap goes thru my head when it's the middle of the night and I can't sleep. Even if no one would say it out loud - the voices in my head would be singing "I told you so" -- we are all our worst critics. I am 6 wks out from surgery too, and as with everything I have my good days and my bad days. Which I guess is to say, we all need to go one day at a time

Thanks Rox...maybe we need to get all the little voices together to bug each other rather than us.

I have wanted surgery since 2004, I only got on the ball and started the process 2012. All little voice was sent packing. I got 25 lbs off and fight everyday to keep it off. But I know I can do this. In between it all have had several other surgeries the hardest being having part of my thyroid removed. If I can get through that I will be fine. I told myself I would never talk or sing again. I am here to tell the voices of worry were sent packing. I took it one day at a time, voiced all concerns to my doctor and all is well.

Hang in there abbygirl. We are all here for you.

Continued success on your journey.

Because I know folks often judge & say we've taken the easy way out, which is far from the truth, I told only my husband & 2 very close friends just in case i slipped up. Didn't want to hear the crap, so I kept it very private. I've always been a very private person, so my journey has been awesome & judgement free thus far.