Okay so i was thinking lastnight the things that I would be looking forward after losing weight, and this morning i was kindly reminded.....

Getting of bed without my feet killing me... I fucking hate that!

Also looking at the massive amount of clothes that I have and saying the same thing every day... " I have nothing to wear". I hate that too....

I missed a couple of weeks of my BCP and started them late, so right now I am retaining water and my ankles look like the elephant man.

I am scheduled for my bandaide tomorrow morning and i have been doing atkins for 2 weeks, i cheated my ass off at dinner! I ate a full meal of chinese food. I had triple delite (my personal fav) and 1/2 of the rice. i gave the other half and the big size of the egg roll to my son.... I want to go make myself puke!

So my DH called and his son lost both of his wrestling matches today... That really makes me sad.. I want to see him a winner. Actually he is really a winner anyway, doesn't need a trophy or scholarship.... He made it to state and was the only one in his district and only the second one ever from the history of his school! He rocks! BTW, I LOVE HIS GIRLFRIEND... He better marry her after he graduates college!

So I have to admit, I am really on edge tonite. I am nervous, anxious, scared, excited and exhausted..... another bad night of sleep! I am going to soak in a hot bath, shave my legs and pits and enjoy it.... I will write soon!