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resa0001

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This is my first blog ever and it is on my journey to a new life. A life without pain each morning, when I wake up because half of my body when numb, because of my weight. Knowing that my first thought will not be “I will need lots of caffeine today to stay awake because I had trouble sleeping from tossing and turning and having trouble rolling over, or because I was snoring so loud I woke myself up”. Dreading what I am going to wear and will it fit today or have I out grown it. Thinking to myself am I going to make a mistake at work today because I cannot focus because my clothes are too tight. These are the things that I think about before I even get out of bed in the morning. I am so tired of these thoughts. There are many more that happen throughout the day.

To help me with all the issues listed and many more I have decided to get the gastric sleeve. I have been to the orientation and got all the information and went to the free consultation to find out if I qualify for the surgery, and I do. At the free consultation I received a free body analysis where I found out a lot about my body that I did not know. My extremities weights are torso (head to stomach) 67.2 pounds, right arm is 8.82 pounds, left arm 8.22 pounds, right leg 21.34 pounds and the left at 21.25 at this time I weighed in at 263.9. My BMI was 40.1. My lean muscle was at 142.6 and my body fat mass was 121.3 pounds. Since this weigh in on 11/12/12, I have gained much more. I currently weight on my scale at home (which is always 5 pounds less than the Doctors office) said 275.6 pounds I have gained 11 pounds since then. I believe it is because I quit smoking and snack more at night, and have not tried a new yo-yo style diet. I am waiting for the surgery. Figure I better enjoy it now because soon I will not be able to.

Today was different I did not want to enjoy eating large amounts of food. I wanted the weight loss to start. I only have a few clothes that fit me that I feel comfortable in to go to work that I am feeling depressed. I recently thought it was because of the holiday season, but it was not. It was me tired of being tired of being FAT. I am ready to get this weight off and I need all the help I can get. If that means major surgery; than that is the extreme in need to do. I am making the call on Monday December 31, to schedule my consultation with the surgeon to get it started. I am afraid of all the things that can go wrong, but I want a longer more for filling life than the one I have know. I am getting tired and could go on and on about how I feel. I am in hopes that I will keep the blog up and I am wanting to do one on youtube so that my family can see me and my weight loss, and maybe help them and others like me that struggle daily with food.

Tata for now.



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You're taking a great step! It's not an easy fix, but it will put the odds in your favor. I'm three weeks out from surgery, and I've had a really good experience so far! One of the coolest experiences I had was the morning I started my pre-op liquid diet. I texted my friend and said, "Think about it-- I'll never weight this much again." That was a cool thought.

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I am right there with you! My doctor (and all doctors are different) has some required tests (sleep apnea, stress test, endoscopy). My insurance requries a nutritional evaluation and a psych evaluation. I have everything scheduled and they will be done in just over a week's time. Then I'll be able to schedule the surgery. I can't wait! This is definitely not the easy way out! And I am right there with you. Since I had my appointment on Dec 7 I have gained 7 pounds. I'm surprised it isn't more. I'd like to get a few of those pounds off before meeting with the surgeon again. I'm there for you!

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So today I scheduled my Initial consultation for 1/3/12. I feel that I am starting the new year off on the right foot. I know this is not an easy fix to all my weight troubles , but it a start in the right direction and I am feeling better about it. Thanks to all who commented I am so happy that there are people out there that are going threw the same problems I am. I can not wait to report that I am starting my pre-op diet like you JennieDK, and like you Michelle1977 gaining weight after the appointment. Thanks ladies

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This whole weight thing is exhausting. I finally made the decision and started my process on November 12th. I had my 2nd weigh in today and have lost enough to schedule...I am having this surgery done on january 30th..I can't believe it...its time to get the monkey off the back once and for all. 40 years is long enough to carry this weight obsession, I'll be 50 in 2013 and my life will be just beginning.its terrifying.....Happy New year, this year really is a new year!!

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I can totally relate to how you are feeling. I have been there so many times... But in 2013 I will draw from those feelings to continue to give me strength and motivation to stay on course to get approval for VS. good luck to everyone in the new year.

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Thanks for sharing. Many people here can relate to what you are feeling. Choosing to do something about it is important!

Good luck on your journey and Happy New Year!

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Thank you all and best wishes to all and make this year 2013 the best. No more weight related problems.

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I can relate to everything you were saying. I am a carbaholic and knew I'd never lose the weight on my own, considering I've been trying for 10+ years without the scale moving. I was sleeved exactly 2 weeks ago today, and as of Monday, 12 days post-op I was 15 lbs. down and 7" smaller. I already sleep better, have no numbness upon waking and my clothes are much looser. I'm loving my sleeve, and I'm sure you will to. The hassle you have to go through to get it, and the pain and liquid diet following are a pain, but are well worth it. Just keep your eyes on the prize and you'll be fine. Good luck on your journey to a new you!

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