First entry
This is my first blog ever and it is on my journey to a new life. A life without pain each morning, when I wake up because half of my body when numb, because of my weight. Knowing that my first thought will not be “I will need lots of caffeine today to stay awake because I had trouble sleeping from tossing and turning and having trouble rolling over, or because I was snoring so loud I woke myself up”. Dreading what I am going to wear and will it fit today or have I out grown it. Thinking to myself am I going to make a mistake at work today because I cannot focus because my clothes are too tight. These are the things that I think about before I even get out of bed in the morning. I am so tired of these thoughts. There are many more that happen throughout the day.
To help me with all the issues listed and many more I have decided to get the gastric sleeve. I have been to the orientation and got all the information and went to the free consultation to find out if I qualify for the surgery, and I do. At the free consultation I received a free body analysis where I found out a lot about my body that I did not know. My extremities weights are torso (head to stomach) 67.2 pounds, right arm is 8.82 pounds, left arm 8.22 pounds, right leg 21.34 pounds and the left at 21.25 at this time I weighed in at 263.9. My BMI was 40.1. My lean muscle was at 142.6 and my body fat mass was 121.3 pounds. Since this weigh in on 11/12/12, I have gained much more. I currently weight on my scale at home (which is always 5 pounds less than the Doctors office) said 275.6 pounds I have gained 11 pounds since then. I believe it is because I quit smoking and snack more at night, and have not tried a new yo-yo style diet. I am waiting for the surgery. Figure I better enjoy it now because soon I will not be able to.
Today was different I did not want to enjoy eating large amounts of food. I wanted the weight loss to start. I only have a few clothes that fit me that I feel comfortable in to go to work that I am feeling depressed. I recently thought it was because of the holiday season, but it was not. It was me tired of being tired of being FAT. I am ready to get this weight off and I need all the help I can get. If that means major surgery; than that is the extreme in need to do. I am making the call on Monday December 31, to schedule my consultation with the surgeon to get it started. I am afraid of all the things that can go wrong, but I want a longer more for filling life than the one I have know. I am getting tired and could go on and on about how I feel. I am in hopes that I will keep the blog up and I am wanting to do one on youtube so that my family can see me and my weight loss, and maybe help them and others like me that struggle daily with food.
Tata for now.
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