Its so stupid how being at my parents house and seeing them so old and frail can trigger me into some serious emotional eating.

Of course we cant eat a lot but I actually grazed yesterday for the first time since surgery.

Had protein meals,that was fine but I ate the following that I shouldnt have:

Crisps-about 10,a slither of milktart,twice!10 mini crackers with a pate on it and not little bit of pate,a lot.

A piece of quiche that had a flakey crust,which I ate.Dont have an idea what my cals were.

This holiday sucks so far.There was a crisis with the caregiver of my 82 year old diabetic uncle ( he's got senile dementia as well)My folks are old themselves but had to take him in for now,you cant abandon an old person to a old age facility just before christmas,that would just not be right.Problem is he need constant care and sits and sleep all day and was up all night making a huge racket.I sleep on a sleeper couch in the lounge (folks are in retirement village and mom freaks out if I want to stay somewhere else) so I am TIRED and get very little sleep.I am cleaning like mad as all the domestic servants go on holiday in December which I think is rediculous as they are not believers and dont celebrate christmas,which is a religious holiday as far as Im concerned.

Thank goodness I am leaving on Sunday for Cape Town.But then it is the crazy inlaws.Luckely I insisted on staying in a hotel apartment so I will have my own space and can get away when I need to.

It is just so sad to see the family getting so old.Even sadder to see how little time working folks have for themselves and others.

But the point remains that I cannot allow myself to feel so guilty about my life and feel so bad for them that my only response is eating.Life will be full of challenging situations in the future.My coping skills will have to change if I want to keep my weight down.

Will post my weight when I can get to a scale a little later.