Well today is the last day I will eat for a very long time. I'm doing 90 days VLCD prior to my surgery in March. I'm hoping to lose 30-40 pounds during the next three months to make my surgery go smoother and have fewer worries. Today I did eat more than usual, but I didn't "pig out" so I'm quite pleased with myself.

I ate some of the things that I've been wanting for a WHILE but had been telling myself I could have later. I knew if I didn't eat them now, it would be bothering me for the next several months. So I ate an order of 5 small chicken wing pieces (not five whole wings, but 5 of the little half wing pieces) I could have eaten two dozen of them, but I figured I'd try to exercise some moderation. I had a HUGE salad with tons of fresh vegetables. A few cookies that we started carrying in the store two weeks ago that I had been resisting., a 50 cent bag of Doritos, a large coffee and a half pack of mini donettes (so that's three mini doughnuts for those of you keeping track), a big juicy granny smith apple, two oranges, a 40 calorie slim jim, and a a fun size Charleston chew. .. Now that I say it all it sounds like a LOT, but trust me, I could have done far FAR worse. .... I really REALLY want to go to the pizza place and order two orders of garlic knots and just eat them all myself, BUT I'm going to resist because I know that that will just make me feel really REALLY sick so Instead I'll have another salad for dinner and call it a day.....

Tomorrow starts an 800 calorie liquid diet for three and a half months, then surgery, then post op diet. Starting the VLCD tomorrow really makes this whole thing finally seem real!