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39 Days... Excited?

TheCurvyJones

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By excited, do you mean freaking out because I have never been under anesthetic? If so then yes. Actually I went to the dentist once for tooth extraction and whatever they gave me knocked me the #$&*# out!

 

It is vain but I am looking forward to looking good. I am embarrassed by how much I want to be annoyed by male attention. I get none right now. I want to know what it is like to not be able to cross a room without people looking. I have no illusions that I will have a hot body but what I will have is a shape that is not a size 20 and THAT I am okay with.

 

I turn 40 in March of 2014... and people can snark and comment and judge all they want but on that day, I will not weigh 273 lbs like I did this year. I will not fight to lose and gain the same 40 lbs. I will not cry because I see people losing weight at a great clip and I am in pain from trying to work out and gaining and losing the same .4 lbs every week and not eating anything GOOD. For that kind of progress, I'd rather eat a pepper and onions sandwich or a pizza or donuts every Friday.

 

MOST OF ALL when I go out with my girls I will not be the fat chick in the back trying not to notice that the dude is complimenting everyone but me. I will not shy away from pictures because I feel like I look like a beached whale next to everyone else, despite having dropped 30 lbs. What world do I live in where I lose 30 lbs but I am still fat?

 

Never again, if I can help it.

 

So yeah. Excited. NERVOUS. But really looking forward to the after picture.

 

I am on liquids through Wednesday of this week. 39 days to surgery. 29 days until I have to be on the 10 day liquid diet, so I am preparing myself. it's actually not too bad. Meal times are a breeze. I hate having to decide what to eat. I do better with limited options, LOL.



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Your entry is really insightful. So much of it I can completely understand. I was recently at a meeting at my church for kindergarten parents, during which they talked about nutrition. When they talked about families that are overweight, they made it sound like we sit around eating cookie dough and laying around in our pajamas all day. I hardly have the time to do everything I need to do on a daily basis, yet I am known to hit the gym at 4:30 in the morning or 9:30 at night. People don't get it. I'm tired of people seeing my weight as a character flaw.

Good luck for you! Keep us posted!

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Your entry is really insightful. So much of it I can completely understand. I was recently at a meeting at my church for kindergarten parents, during which they talked about nutrition. When they talked about families that are overweight, they made it sound like we sit around eating cookie dough and laying around in our pajamas all day. I hardly have the time to do everything I need to do on a daily basis, yet I am known to hit the gym at 4:30 in the morning or 9:30 at night. People don't get it. I'm tired of people seeing my weight as a character flaw.

Good luck for you! Keep us posted!

Totally1 Not only do I probably know more about nutrition than they do, but I probably eat better as well. I know all about low fat low carb high low glycemic superfoods that rev your metabolism.... so while you much on Cheetos and ham with mayo on white bread when I've eaten a grilled chicken salad with olive oil and lemon juice every single day for lunch this week--- save your lecture about 'just eating less and exercising more'. If 'Put the Fork Down' worked, we would all be thin.

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